[At the very least Mob recognized that Robby and sensei were helping. Oh, by the way, hates that Mob is calling him Mr. Larusso now. Absolutely loathes that. He was still Mob's sensei, dammit.]
You made a mistake. You had that fight with your brother the night before. [Yes, he heard that. And yes, he was still thinking about it.] It isn't any surprise you weren't thinking clearly. [There's emphasis to his words that was unusual for him. Instead of the relatively neutral tone, there is passion in it.]
Trying is enough. You can't think failure as not trying hard enough. There's no scale that anyone can base that off of.
Stop being so hard on yourself. It won't help you get where you want to be. And guilt will eat you until there's nothing left.
[he says it, and then after a moment his blank face goes dimmer. that... isn't something he should say to sunny. not when- not with mari.
the plate cracks in his hand at the realization of that slip. get a clue, he thinks. don't be stupid.] I'm sorry. [he says, quietly. the cracked plate is still in his hand.
after a moment he does look over though, tired around the edges.] What should I do then?
[It feels a little like a slap to the face. Mistakes shouldn't hurt people this badly. Sunny's expression grows a little more neutral, before it returns to the frustration that was there before.]
But they can and do. And that doesn't mean you aren't worthy of forgiveness.
[Gonna take that lesson and apply it. Maybe he would have shut down not even that long ago to Mob saying that, but no. Even if other people didn't forgive Sunny... Sunny would have to forgive himself. Mob should forgive himself.]
Keep going to Miyagi-Do. Even if Robby is acting weird, the rest of us want you there. Sensei definitely does.
[after a beat mob nods. maybe that's true. that is absolutely true. no one is worthless, no matter what they do. that's something he knows that won't be shaken, even by this. even him.
for a brief moment his chest aches. he wishes master reigen was here.
he puts the plate to the side. the briefest moment and he lets his power wrap around it, mending the crack. there's still that imperfection, it might need to be thrown out anyway for looks alone, but it's useable.]
No. [he says softly.] I can't. I'll... think about it, but I can't disrespect Robby's wishes like that. I- [he needs a moment before very quietly saying,] Robby means too much to me to do that.
[For a quiet moment, Sunny watches as Mob deals with the plate. Heals it. Perhaps it was imperfect now, but was that such a terrible thing?]
Do you know about kintsugi? [Perhaps this sounds like a random interjection, but give him a moment-] It's a style of repair that treats cracks in pottery by joining them together with gold or silver lacquer. They're prominent and noticeable, since they're viewed as being part of the object's history, rather than something that should be covered up.
[He pauses, glancing upward.] Maybe it's not the same, but when people are hurt I think it should be. You can repair the wound but it's still part of you. You're imperfect but not broken.
[Anyway... sorry to wax philosophical here but Sunny was a creative kid and the plate got him thinking.]
I know you care about Robby, but please do think about it. If Robby wants to avoid you, he should be the one to stay away instead.
[mob shakes his head, it's not something he's heard about. as it's explained it makes him think of reigen, right after that pang of missing him too. it just sounds like something master reigen would say. well, usually reigen's went a bit off the rails at some point but when it was really serious it was like this.
kind, firm, addressing things were broken in a way that didn't mean he was broken, or anyone was broken. he thinks jun could use hearing this. as for himself-]
You can learn from it. [fill the wound up with something else. mogami's world festers under his skin sometimes, but usually he can remember what it taught him about worth and the people around him. how he can change people too.
(he can break people too. maybe he broke robby's trust completely. he lets those thoughts sit for a moment before pushing them away, which is a bit of a step. not instant repression, at least.)]
... I'll think about it. [he promises.] I don't want to not go to karate. I really like it. I... I thought it was helping.
[Sunny nods, his features softening a bit. That was exactly it. You could learn from it. You could grow from it.
And now Mob was at least promising to think about things. That was good.]
I think it's helping. It's also helped me a lot. [A pause.] And... you have, too, Mob. If I hadn't met you so soon after I got here, I'm not sure where I would have ended up. [Mob essentially gave him a home and support network. He gave him someone that he could confide in.
And for that Mob gets to enjoy a tiny but genuine smile from Sunny.]
[oh, a sunny smile. rare! even stranger given how terrible everything seems lately. he can't offer one back but his shoulders ease a little.]
I think you would have been okay. You're really tough. [said plainly, but still,] I... don't want to worry sensei. I guess I should consider that too. I don't think he agrees with- with Robby.
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You made a mistake. You had that fight with your brother the night before. [Yes, he heard that. And yes, he was still thinking about it.] It isn't any surprise you weren't thinking clearly. [There's emphasis to his words that was unusual for him. Instead of the relatively neutral tone, there is passion in it.]
Trying is enough. You can't think failure as not trying hard enough. There's no scale that anyone can base that off of.
Stop being so hard on yourself. It won't help you get where you want to be. And guilt will eat you until there's nothing left.
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[he says it, and then after a moment his blank face goes dimmer. that... isn't something he should say to sunny. not when- not with mari.
the plate cracks in his hand at the realization of that slip. get a clue, he thinks. don't be stupid.] I'm sorry. [he says, quietly. the cracked plate is still in his hand.
after a moment he does look over though, tired around the edges.] What should I do then?
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But they can and do. And that doesn't mean you aren't worthy of forgiveness.
[Gonna take that lesson and apply it. Maybe he would have shut down not even that long ago to Mob saying that, but no. Even if other people didn't forgive Sunny... Sunny would have to forgive himself. Mob should forgive himself.]
Keep going to Miyagi-Do. Even if Robby is acting weird, the rest of us want you there. Sensei definitely does.
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for a brief moment his chest aches. he wishes master reigen was here.
he puts the plate to the side. the briefest moment and he lets his power wrap around it, mending the crack. there's still that imperfection, it might need to be thrown out anyway for looks alone, but it's useable.]
No. [he says softly.] I can't. I'll... think about it, but I can't disrespect Robby's wishes like that. I- [he needs a moment before very quietly saying,] Robby means too much to me to do that.
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Do you know about kintsugi? [Perhaps this sounds like a random interjection, but give him a moment-] It's a style of repair that treats cracks in pottery by joining them together with gold or silver lacquer. They're prominent and noticeable, since they're viewed as being part of the object's history, rather than something that should be covered up.
[He pauses, glancing upward.] Maybe it's not the same, but when people are hurt I think it should be. You can repair the wound but it's still part of you. You're imperfect but not broken.
[Anyway... sorry to wax philosophical here but Sunny was a creative kid and the plate got him thinking.]
I know you care about Robby, but please do think about it. If Robby wants to avoid you, he should be the one to stay away instead.
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kind, firm, addressing things were broken in a way that didn't mean he was broken, or anyone was broken. he thinks jun could use hearing this. as for himself-]
You can learn from it. [fill the wound up with something else. mogami's world festers under his skin sometimes, but usually he can remember what it taught him about worth and the people around him. how he can change people too.
(he can break people too. maybe he broke robby's trust completely. he lets those thoughts sit for a moment before pushing them away, which is a bit of a step. not instant repression, at least.)]
... I'll think about it. [he promises.] I don't want to not go to karate. I really like it. I... I thought it was helping.
[just not enough.]
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And now Mob was at least promising to think about things. That was good.]
I think it's helping. It's also helped me a lot. [A pause.] And... you have, too, Mob. If I hadn't met you so soon after I got here, I'm not sure where I would have ended up. [Mob essentially gave him a home and support network. He gave him someone that he could confide in.
And for that Mob gets to enjoy a tiny but genuine smile from Sunny.]
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I think you would have been okay. You're really tough. [said plainly, but still,] I... don't want to worry sensei. I guess I should consider that too. I don't think he agrees with- with Robby.
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Maybe. But I'm glad I don't have to find out. [The smile does not stay for long, particularly at the mention of Robby.]
I'm sure he doesn't. I don't think there's anyone in the dojo that would agree with Robby about this.